Halcyon Days

Halcyon Days
By: Kyuutatsu

Disclaimer: I don’t own GW, I’m poor.

Pairings: 1x2x1
Warnings: Slight angst, sap, homosexuality, a little splash of shounen-ai


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Duo sat there staring out his window silently, the summer breeze wafted in gently ruffling his bangs ever so gently. He closed his eyes against the soft caresses of the breeze, he could smell the dandelions, the freashly cut grass, and a hint of honeysuckle. Summer was beautiful in many ways, he opened his eyes gently and looked out into the distance, his violet eyes meeting up with the most beautiful sunset. He gasped out gently as if the sunset had stolen his breath, and sighed out again gently as he took in the image that lay before him. The orange, pink, and blue melding together to create a masterpiece of it's very own, a beautiful mélange of colors that seemed to go on forever.

He loved the sky, the summer breeze, the faint smell of life surrounding him, but what he loved even more was the endless depths of the cobalt sea and the great expanse of tan sand. What really got him every time, and left him in a hopeless stupor was that the ocean and sand belonged only to him. It was his totally and completely, willingly given over to him, trusting that he'd do the very right thing. He smiled, his heart fluttered gently and he got a lovely knot in his stomach, this happened every time he thought about his lover. He closed his eyes again, just behind his lids he could see his beloved, replaying gently in his minds eyes all the things he loved about Heero.

He loved the way he concentrated when driving, or tending to business, he always had this wonderful scowl of concentration. Those mossy green brows shoved together, the way his eyes burrowed into whatever it was he was focused on. The sheer determination was beautiful, he was once subjected to said determination himself, and continues to be. Duo smiled, he wouldn't have it any other way, the way Heero was always determined to make him happy, to make their relationship work. Duo's smiled widened as he chuckled, they didn't have to make it work, it simply worked out perfectly on it's own. As if some greater spirit had divined their fate from the start, and played it all out so that they'd finally meet at the cross road and finally jump onto the path less traveled...together.

He opened his eyes gently and sighed out contently, he was hopeless, 5 years after the war and he was still head over hills for his beloved Japanese solider. It was a powerful feeling, strong, and unwavering, it never failed to amaze him the amount of love he had for Heero. What never failed to make him blush was the fact that Heero's love seemed equally as expansive, and he showed it each and everyday. It was beautiful to see, to feel, it made him warm no matter where he was, be it at work, or alone at home.

He frowned suddenly, but he never understood, and probably never will, was why Heero choose him. Sure he loved Heero to death and he was extremely happy, but Duo always felt as if he wasn't giving Heero as much as he was receiving. He was often subjected to a lot of criticism, people often told Heero he could do better for himself, and that Relena was the perfect choice for him. Duo felt his heart sink softly, Heero could definitely do better than him, he was really nothing, a common street rat with no family, no dignity, and certainly no pride left to him. He was a broken toy, only good to be discarded and never loved again by anyone. Yet Heero loved him all the same, despite the criticism, despite how people saw him it didn't deter him in the least. He never let on that he heard the other Preventers around the office talking about him, how everyone seemed to feel that Heero "Perfect Solider" Yuy was much better off with Relena "Holier than Thou" Peacecraft.

He scoffed and pushed himself up, he hated to admit it, but sometimes he felt like he was keeping Heero from moving on to greener pastures. Like he was blocking progress for Heero, he liked to hope it was just his insecurities talking but the feeling was nagging. It was like a snake that continued to strike, even after it was long since dead, the poison would inevitably kill him. He closed his eyes, he wrapped his arms around himself gently and held back a soft choked sob as he began to cry. He hated listening to the others, he hated doubting their relationship...He loved Heero...Heero loved him...what was so hard to see about that? No one dogged on Trowa and Quatre, but that may be because Relena didn't care for them in the way she cared for Heero.

"Why..." he whispered, it was barely audible over the silence that reigned in the room he shared with Heero.

"Why...what?" a tender voice in the orange tainted room broke him from his misery as he snapped his head up, tears rolling down his cheeks.

Heero looked at him, his face switching from mild concern to pain in a matter of a few seconds. Heero crossed the room gently, his feet making no noise as he crossed the hardwood floor that him and Duo had laid out together. He reached and wiped the tears away gently, Heero moved kneeling down softly able to look up into Duo's eyes gently.

"Why what, darling" he whispered melodiously, his voice quivering a bit in concern, his lover was crying, his heart felt like it was breaking in half. He wanted to cry too, but he held himself back, he had to be strong and find out why the braided beauty was crying.

Heero noticed Duo turn those beautiful eyes away from him and look to the side as if ashamed to have been caught. Duo did feel ashamed, he was caught wallowing in self-pity and doubt, how would he tell Heero? He closed his eyes, all his insecurities surfaced at once he felt like he couldn't hold them back but he did.

"Duo..." Heero's rugged voice came, but it had an underlying gentleness to it, he reached and pulled Duo to him softly "Please...tell me"

Duo felt his heart open up, the desperation and pain in Heero's voice forced his heart to split in two and his self control to be thrown to the wind. He held the lithe form of his beautiful Heero, god he smelled so lovely, the musk of perspiration and the body wash he used that morning mixed together to create a scent all it's own. The scent relaxed him slowly as he began to feel like he could open up, he remained close to Heero as he spoke softly.

"Why...is it that everyone feels your better off with someone else? Why does everyone feel I'm just not worthy of happiness? Why is it everyone feels that I don't deserve you..." he closed his eyes again, tears rolling down his cheeks again, it hurt to let it all out, but it was a good hurt, a vulnerable but comforting pain in his chest. He trusted Heero with his feelings, even if they left him feeling naked after exposing them for what they were, just bare and vindictive insecurities.

"Because they don't understand" Heero chose his words softly "They constantly try to force Relena into my heart because of her status, because of her obsession with me. They don't understand at all that my heart was and has always been filled to the brim with my love for you." He said tenderly stroking Duo's back comforting his lover. "From the first time we met, I knew then and there I had found the missing piece in my life. Those people are blind if they cannot see what a beautiful person you are, inside and out, in fact a lot of times I feel it's me who doesn't deserve you" Heero said softly shocking Duo as he looked up at Heero.

Heero brushed the back of his hand against Duo's cheek wiping away the stray tears. "I wonder what I ever did to deserve you, to have someone so precious and beautiful love me so unconditionally. To give me his all and more, to me of all people, a boy who was raised to be a killing machine, but you saw past that and gave me without question the one thing that meant the most to you...your heart" he said kissing Duo's forehead gently, a tender kiss chalked full of every shred of love Heero held for his braided sweetheart.

"Then I realize, it's not about deserving you...it's about loving you. Why should I question when the circumstances I'm dealt are in my favor, so I stop thinking about how I don't deserve you and think about ways to always show you I love you." Heero finished softly with a tender kiss on Duo's rosy lips.

Duo flushed heavily hearing Heero speak so tenderly, he felt tears well in his eyes again this time the tears were not the result of sadness but the result of happiness. Every word meant so much to him, to hear Heero ease away his worries, his fears, and most of all the insecurities that had plagued him for five whole years. All of that washed away in one single moment, in one single small expanse of time. Duo's smile returned now, full force, it was radiant like the soft glow of a full moon, or the heated stare of the sun. Heero sighed gently he loved that smile so much, it was the only thing he hoped he would see on Duo's face. What they both deserved was happiness, and this was their happiness, and not a soul would take this love from them.